I Can Not Imagine... not yet....

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I was just thinking about the song, (most of my friends know this) "I Can Only Imagine". I was thinking about this because, I can not imagine the heart breaking pain our Lord Jesus, must have felt at watching any of his children suffer, oh how his soul must cry when he watches our grieving, our sorrow. As he walked on this earth, walked with people, felt the same joy and fear, the same injustice, the same loss at watching people rip each other apart with words and actions that can not be taken back, not ever, not on this earth, not in this life. I/we can say we are sorry but it does not remove the scar we make on a heart.
I did not start thinking on this because of the negativity or the finger pointing. I read last night about a young woman that is fighting for her life as hard as she can with all she has to give, and the sweet words written by a grieving husband and daughter, of my friend Mary, both of these situations took my breath away, actually I let out a heart felt sob, and am crying still for their pain. BUT even at that, I am thankful, to witness the pain, (as awful as that may sound, let me finish before you get ill at ease with me) I have felt some of the same pain there by I have compassion and I feel this is one of the greatest gifts my Lord has given me, because he walked this earth, our Jesus knows loves , pain and compassion, first hand, just like he knows greed, back biting and hate. I am in no way saying I am or ever will be capable of the Love or compassion that would compare to my Lord, and I can not imagine how much greater his love and compassion is above what I can ever achieve. But I am striving to be more like him and less like me, maybe as the like him part of me outgrows the like me part of me then I will be better able to imagine how to Love like Jesus, to forgive like Jesus, to be like Jesus......

I Meant To Tell You

 

Just thinking about friends and family. On any given day, each and every one of us may get a call, email, mail or a visit from friends or family, telling of a hurt or a problem, then, we cry, we pray, we worry, we tell another and we again pray.

Then we get another call, email, etc... and we hear of a blessing, a miracle, a healing, a love, we cry, we pray, we laugh and we tell another.

Each of us become aware, in the course of a few days, of a friend, son, daughter, grandchild, spouse, in-laws and/or parents, with sad news or glad news. Sometimes this happens daily or several times a week. I just know that whatever comes our way today, will look different in the light of tomorrow with the help of prayer, and the support of the people we love.

If I didn't tell you I care, I meant to, If I didn't show you I cared I should have.

I wrote this over a year ago. (on Wednesday, February 10, 2010 at 4:30pm) I do not remember what caused me to follow this thought, what tragedy or blessing that had occurred that week. Please don't misunderstand my meaning here. If you happen to peek into the window of my walk through this life, do not think it is any easier nor any harder than your walk . "I am blessed " and that in it's self speaks volumes. I see my life as a walk, sometimes I run, crawl, skip or fly, I have even had to be dragged. The thing is I am never,  never alone ("Never Alone" my favorite childhood hymn). My Lord has had to even drag me kicking and screaming over some bumps, then as the poem says he carries me when I am to weak to walk.  So what I meant to tell you is that God loves ...... he shows each of us everyday and never forgets to show us.

From my porch I can see lots of Red Buds budding!

What was in his mind when our Lord created the perfect color of a flowering Red Bud tree? My guess is a 3 year old little girl. Are they red? they look pink to me, but my great niece says, " Aunt Niece, I love your purplely trees. And I love how the minds of children work, everything is so simple, just as it should be. Children (in most cases) believe the world is a perfect place.  If there are[1] cookies [2] hours playing with people they love [3] flowers, birds and puppies.
It was warm enough today, but I could not stay and just stop with so much on my plate... but I did think of sitting in my hammock swing opening up my current read and then slipping into a deep nap before finishing even one page. This kind of thinking happens every year about this time.
Now I have touched on several things that are important in my life GOD ~ children ~ family ~ nature ~ books ~ and naps.